I just lost my drain of thought

So I was watching Nocturnal State on VH1 and this song came up. I didn’t really watch the video because I was doing some other stuff, but the song was so appealing. I listened to it again right after on YouTube when it was set as background music to this tribute to Jack and Kate from Lost. haha. It’s a nice song and is perfect for the last 1.8 years of my life. You see, (a very tiny) part of that entry I wrote about people who fish for pity is sort of a pep talk to myself, except I don’t want or need people’s pity, nor do I make things up for sympathy, and I definitely don’t need to grow some balls because I can get on with my life, thanks. In fact, there’s really only two words for me in there. MOVE ON. And I feel kind of like I did. I was pretty certain for a day and now I’m kind of iffy but I think it’s just the memories. Baby steps, yo. Anyway, I shall let the song speak for me, because, like I said, it’s totally perfect.

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish [Chinese hahaha] lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well, I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

How embarrisking. haha. It was about a day ago that I said I was done, but I guess now I can officially be done because every aspect of life needs a theme song, don’t you think?