I just lost my vane of thought

I hate the way I fuss over such minute problems in my life while there are bigger things going on around me. For a couple weeks now I’ve been flying without wings, but for some reason (that I know haha), I sort of plummeted this weekend. I was alone, bored and I just wanted to get out Friday night, but no one was around to save me, so I did some random stuff and eventually got tired and went to sleep feeling okay. But for some reason everything about Saturday just seemed off. I’m not in the indifferent state I was in before, at least, but I’m not filled with the glee I was enjoying earlier. Minor setback, I’d say.

I suppose it didn’t help that my cousins were talking about relationships and such, and, both of them being married already, were saying college is prime time to meet the mens, because, as said by one of them, “it’s all slim pickin’s from then on.” I mean, all my married cousins met their hubs in college. What can I do? I’m no social magnet. It made me a little scared, like I was behind in my schedule of life. I would prefer not to be an old spinster, but if that is my fate, I suppose I’ll have to accept it. But uh, if anyone wants to help a sister out, I’m open to suggestions (and introductions!). Nothing shady.

As for the greater things going on around me, I hate feeling like I can’t help those around me. I feel so…helpless, for lack of better words. I’m one of those people who just wants to fix things all the time and make everything better, but I can’t. I’m totally ready to get my superpower of making miracles happen, yo.

On a lighter note, some relatives visited from SF this weekend. I went with two of my cousins to Old Town Pasadena for some retail therapy today. And some Pinkberry. Thinking back on that, I…feel kind of good now. hahaha. I love frozen yogurt. It was really good hanging out with them and talking with them and earlier on, my other cousin, Cherry. Helen and Mary got to try Pinkberry for the first time today, so life’s got new meaning for them now, of course. haha. Anyway, didn’t see a lot of things I liked today, but Mary got me a coat from H&M and that filled me with some materialistic joy. Yee!

Writing this down has actually made me feel better, so kudos to blogging. My heart (and foot) goes out to others who are not doing so well. I’m sending good thoughts their ways.