I just lost my drain of thought

I vowed to finish my Chinese book report today. What did I do instead? Watch two episodes of Monk, edit my resume, apply for a job I was editing my resume for, get sucked into MySpace and YouTube, eat myself sick, watch more TV, and then walk around the apartment like someone with ADHD. I picked up my book that I’m supposed to read for my class tomorrow for like a second, but then I realized what’s wrong with me. Well right before that, I was thinking, Man, getting started on something is the hardest part. I don’t know why I can’t overcome that. It went from being 3 something to 10 something so quick. And while I was romping around the apartment, I realized this, which applies to everything in my life, including my current sitch: I seem to expect quick results with little effort put in. It’s something I really need to work on. I suppose I can get all cliche about it and say that Rome wasn’t built in a day. I didn’t even put too much effort into coming up with that. So I will work on fixing that about myself. My report is not going to pop up out of nowhere. And my little freakout sesh yesterday was for no good reason. I finally understand the other point of view.

And by the way, I love looking at my resume, not because it’s got anything cool on there in particular, but because it makes me feel so grown up, like I’ve actually contributed to society, when, in reality, almost all my experience is just volunteer stuff at school. haha. This was the first time I was actually sending it out for a job. The only reason I have a resume is because I applied for stupid Ad Team, which I guess is a blessing in disguise, because who knows when I would’ve actually written it up if that didn’t push me to do it?